Thursday, January 10, 2008

A Big Day

It was a pretty big day in L's world today. I did have a funny feeling about this year, primarily because of the big question floating around in my mind: Will I stay with this company or not?

First of all, I'm not sure I could love a company more. Or the people I work with. But while things seem to be going fine now, I haven't been sure if it would be a good fit long-term given my skill set and personality. And today the answer was confirmed. It's time to move on. The blessing in all of this is that I don't have to keep my job search a secret. My employer knows and will give me referrals, make calls where there are contacts, etc. They actually care about me finding a good fit. Could I ask for more?

Well, yes. A little more. How about the answer to 'What do I want to do?' That would be a huge help. Do I want to stick with the same deal? Or do something new?

This also raises the question of: Do I want to move? I mean, this is my chance isn't it? Perfect opportunity to try a new place. But to be honest, the thought of it makes me want to crawl under my bed and start sucking my thumb. Start over? It's an adventure, yes. But I'm not sure if it's one I'm really up for anymore. And that scares me, too.

I have four days to think about what it is I'm interested in pursuing. Four days of serious praying. Then I'll have a meeting to discuss.

The beauty of it all is that I'm not anxious or nervous or any emotion really. And I haven't the first clue what my future holds. All I know is that God has carried me this far, so I'm gonna let Him take me farther.


Michigan Mom said...

Wow, what a surprise! You are definitely handling this well. I think I would be a mess. That's great though that your company is going to help you find another job and actually cares about your future. Good luck with everything, it's both exciting and scary, but things will work out!

chloe elizabeth said...

I hate the unknown, but I find it very exciting at the same time! Yay for figuring out that you need to move on. I was about 27 before I really knew what I wanted to do. It comes eventually. Good luck!

Jenni Lynn said...

Colorado is great! And it is driving distance to Omaha :O) Plus when you live here everyone loves to come visit. Oh, and there is this big church that is great. OH and Brett and I live here, so you would already know someone. Plus in the summer there are so many things to do outside you get plenty of working out done without being stuck in a gym. Not that you should move here, it is just a suggestion, a good one :O)

s said...

a very big day indeed. i love how you have so much confidence with every step you take, it's amazing. i love your outlook! i think it's great that you have the courage to make a move, i tend to just get complacent with the comfortable, i really need to work on that. i'm going to starting taking cues from you :).

p.s. new york is fantastic.

TCO said...

Seems to me that you miss your family and should be closer to them.

my life is brilliant said...

I agree with S. But I think you should move to Dallas. And hang out with me (Heather's here too! We can all THREE hang out!!!). :)

steve and randel hambrick said...

exciting opportunities ahead!! woo hoo!

my vote--- MOVE!! i love having lived in several different states, and i wish i had the opportunity to live in many more.

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