Friday, October 19, 2007

All I Have to Say is. .

I am so glad it's Friday!

I have been having a very hard time focusing today. I am so antsy and distracted.

I have some fun weekend plans and I expect I'll find out Sunday or Monday if the Texan and I will go out again . . you know, not that I'm thinking about it or anything. I'll be completely honest with you by saying that I'm having a tough time trusting the Lord with it. I want him to call that bad. And I have no reason to think he won't other than GOD MIGHT STOP HIM. And I'm having a hard time not asking for what I want instead of what God wants, even though I know that ultimately that's what I want, too . . because hurting? it's not my idea of a good time.

Update: I just talked to my co-worker about the above paragraph.

Me: "I've been having anxiety in the mornings, but it pretty much goes away after lunch. I'm a freak."

Co-worker: "You're better than I am. I'm an all-day-er."

1 comment:

pinksundrops said...

Yeah I get afternoon anxiety. Or late night anxiety - then I realize I just need to go to bed to make my brain bequiet. You have been waiting for so long for this that there is no reason he shouldn't call. Unless there is something HORRIBLE about him you don't realize, God gives us the desires of our hearts. And I'm pretty sure this is a clear desire of your heart :) !